Sunday, May 20, 2012

An Ode to my Time here at IIT Madras

I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,

who were expelled from academies for publishing obscene odes on the windows of the skull,
who cowered in unshaven rooms in underwear, burning their money in wastebaskets and listening to terror through the wall,

who scribbled all night rocking and rolling over lofty incantations which in yellow morning were stanzas of gibberish,

who cut their wrists three times unsuccessfully, gave up and were forced to open antique stores where they thought they were growing old and cried,

who in humorless protest overturned only one symbolic ping pong table, resting briefly in catatonia,

to recreate the syntax and measure of poor human prose and stand before you speechless and intelligent and shaking with shame, rejected yet confessing out the soul to conform to the rhythm of thought in his naked and endless head,

Five years' Breakthroughs !
Five years' being over the river !
Five years' flips and crucifixions!
Five years' gone down the flood !
Five years' Highs, Epiphanies and Despairs !!

Five years' animal screams and suicides !
Five years' understanding great minds !
Five years' New loves !
Five years' being called ' Mad generation' !


But Now it is Five Years Down on the Rocks of Time !!!

Adieu IIT Madras !!!!

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Why Don't I Hate You

You Don't Know why you love someone , rather you know why you hate someone. For this reason alone, I sing this song !!!


" Why Don't I Hate You "

Why Don't I hate you ;

Because your one smile
breaks all the barriers
in my heart to bring out
the hidden smile on me !!

Because you always try
to understand how I feel
why i laugh and  what
to say when i cry aloud !!

Why Don't I hate you;

Because of your energy
the unbounded happiness
that resides in you
waiting to be released !!

Because of your voice
the music of it that
at any instant or moment
soothes my inner nerves !!

Why Don't I hate you;

Because the way you sulk
the way your facial expressions
look like when you sulk
makes me laugh aloud !!

Because the way you cry
looking like a little girl
makes me cast aside
my fears of emotional feelings !!

Why Don't I hate you;

Because I can't stop myself
from loving you insanely
from tripping you badly
even though you hate it !!

Because I can't stop myself
from not talking to you
from not hating you
even though you piss me off !!

Why Don't I hate you  
Because I'm trying 
to change myself for
the first time in my life
to be a better person for you !!

Why Don't I hate you 
because your stubbornness
your child like immaturity
helps subdue my anger on you !!

Why Don't I hate you 
because of the fact that
I Love You !!

Why Don't I hate you 
Because I love You !!!



This is the last I have written and this sums up the emotions behind every song in the blog !! And thus a fitting end to my Blog !!
CIAO !!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Forgotten memories

" FORGOTTEN MEMORIES "



My eyes are wet,
and even  my dreams are wet ,
My eyes are wet,
and even my corners of eyelids are wet,
My cries are raining,
Tears fall and heart gets hurt
My cries are raining,
and it's weather of separation's clouds,


With black and blank nights, I'm making friends,
Lost in these ways, I have nothing my own,
Every moment, how I bear,
Every moment, to myself, I keep saying,
I have forgotten you,
I've forgotten you,
I've forgotten u,
Then why do your memories
make me cry,
make me cry..

The words written in your memories do I hear,
Passed moments ask why we got separated like that,
God, this distance we've got
God, it's your decision only,
God, it has happened,
that you had written..

For two moments I was attached to you,
Then such the path was turned
I started getting lost from you
Like something mine
was getting away from me..

You only pray for me now,
You only part me from this pain now,
Being yours, when I did not remain yours,
I say this to myself,
I have forgotten you,
I've forgotten you,
I've forgotten u,
Then why d0 your memories
make me cry,
make me cry..



Saturday, January 8, 2011

LONELY ROAD

" Lonely Road " 

 I have been walking this road
walking along this lonely road
for the past few sordid months
hoping to reach my destination



Along came a rainy day
washing away all my sorrows
Along came a gusty wind
pushing me back with its arrows



Wish i had a partner on this road
conversations would have inspired me
Wish the strangers i met came with me
but everyone had their own destinations
Wish the days weren't so gloomy
Wish the nights weren't so chilly
depression wouldn't have caught up with me.



To find the joy in my life
I walk this road
To cleanse the sins of my life
I walk along this road 



Regretting the decisions I made
Procrastinating the tasks I had
feeling the losses I suffered
traveling back in time 
I would correct all those mistakes.



Embracing the void
before I reach my destination
I hope that there's someone 
to hammer nails to my coffin.


This song is about the loneliness we feel during the course of our life . It talks about the journey of our life , the ups and downs in it, the wish for company , the purpose of choosing a particular course , the regrets of choosing such a course and finally the hope that there is some one who recognizes your worth and misses you when you are gone. It is a deeply thought song , hope my endeavors are appreciated.\m/

Friday, November 12, 2010

LOST CHANGES

LOST CHANGES


Everyday you gotta decide
what is eternal in this world
the man or the moment ?
the act or the reason ?


Don't change your mind
you may regret it
don't change your heart
you may be astounded


The winds of change 
blew too hard on my back
in a bid to change thyself
I lost myself !!


changes that were lost in me
inspired the emotions of my mind
after all that has happened
I still live the moment and
I still play my acts without reason !!


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I've Moved On

" I'VE MOVED ON "


Ought to forget
The day I met you
The dress I first saw you in
The small talk I had with you
Now that I've moved on.

Ought to forget
The day I liked you
The movie I first took you to
The grool time I spent with you
Now that I've moved on

Wasn't my folly
mistaking your friendship
for the feelings of love
fell for you like
so many others before have.

Ought to forget
The day I proposed to you
The way I was rejected by you
The fights I had with you
Now that I've moved on

Wrestling with myself 
realized the value of
live and let live
making me forget these
now that I've moved on.


This song is inspired from Porcupine tree's " she's moved on" . 

Monday, June 21, 2010

Dying a Virgin

"Dying A Virgin"


My first proposal , the flowers
the gifts , the bottomless thoughts
the expectations , that dreams together.


My first love , the touch
the kiss , the crazy pranks
the movies , that walks together.

She outgrew my love
a passing phase for her
moving on , found love again
got married and settles


Something in me died,
snapped and broken that day.


My first break-up , the depression
the misery , the lost energy
the confusion , that happiness lost forever.


My first job , the friends
the booze , the cool parties
the drugs , that unrealistic shit forever.


In a quest to regain
that lost part of me, spent
regretting the paths chosen
until death was upon me.


Dying a virgin , felt happy
that i at least found love , found
that inner peace this day!!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

OUTSIDER!!

Outsider

Outside
on the dark side
alone
looking in
on a whim
want a home

Outsider
in my blood
in my bones
can't have
what i want
doomed to roam
all alone
on the outside

Let me in
want a friend
need a lover

Be with me
be my girl
be my soul
walk my heart 
to its death

Outsider
in my blood
in my bones
can't have
what i want
Doomed to roam
all alone
on the outside.

Another attempt at a death metal song!!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Death of Infatuation


"Death of Infatuation"




A fine, thin line between
infatuation and love
so crossed is the line,
he thought of it

The music, pornography
and the movies
the onset of puberty and
the journey through adolescence
The line became Hazy.

A girl entered,
he called it love
others called it insanity
he called it madness of love.

The girl didn't understand his
love or infatuation
she merely was on an adventure
if ended badly, was a gain

Satan blessed or cursed him
she died in an accident
he kept cursing god.

At the funeral
he felt different
thanked god now
for making him miss her trip

He felt lucky that day
the day of the crash
the day of his flu.

At the funeral
Satan intervened
new girl entered
death of infatuation
or the beginning he wondered.

The line was again Hazy to him!!!


This song is my attempt at a pure death metal genre type song!! the underlying meaning and the non repetitive lyrics and the gross thoughts!! \m/


Sunday, June 6, 2010

The Frustrated Path

"The Frustrated Path "


Life is full of mysteries and puzzles
trying to solve them landed me in
problems and difficulties unforeseen

The hastiness in overcoming these
resulted in my failure and frustration

The feeling is that there's 
something wrong in myself
i can't find the words
and i can't find the courage in me
The frustration is on me.

When the person at the other end
doesn't reciprocate your love
the love dies a slow natural death
leaving me with only misery and depression

The frustration in me is bottled up
and on a cue is let out on
people close to my heart
hurting them in the process.

I regret the path i've chosen
The Frustrated Path

The feeling is that there's
something wrong in myself
i can't find the words
and i can't find the path for me
the frustrated path is the one.

In the pursuit of that elusive happiness
I started dealing with the problems
solving them one by one made my
path to a peaceful existence too clear

In righting the wrong i've done
i took the support of my friends
trusting their advice in helping me out
and making me a better person.

The feeling is that there's
something good in myself
i can't find the words
and i can't find the despair in me
the frustration is outta me.

The feeling is that there's
something good in myself
i can't find the words
and i can't find the sadness in me
the happiness is on me ATLAST!!