Dying a Virgin

"Dying A Virgin"

My first proposal , the flowers

the gifts , the bottomless thoughts

the expectations , that dreams together.

My first love , the touch

the kiss , the crazy pranks

the movies , that walks together.

She outgrew my love

a passing phase for her

moving on , found love again

got married and settles

Something in me died,

snapped and broken that day.

My first break-up , the depression

the misery , the lost energy

the confusion , that happiness lost forever.

My first job , the friends

the booze , the cool parties

the drugs , that unrealistic shit forever.

In a quest to regain

that lost part of me, spent

regretting the paths chosen

until death was upon me.

Dying a virgin , felt happy

that i at least found love , found

that inner peace this day!!

OUTSIDER!!

Outsider

Outside

on the dark side

alone

looking in

on a whim

want a home

Outsider

in my blood

in my bones

can't have

what i want

doomed to roam

all alone

on the outside

Let me in

want a friend

need a lover

Be with me

be my girl

be my soul

walk my heart 

to its death

Outsider

in my blood

in my bones

can't have

what i want

Doomed to roam

all alone

on the outside.

Another attempt at a death metal song!!

Death of Infatuation

"Death of Infatuation"

A fine, thin line between

infatuation and love

so crossed is the line,

he thought of it

The music, pornography

and the movies

the onset of puberty and

the journey through adolescence

The line became Hazy.

A girl entered,

he called it love

others called it insanity

he called it madness of love.

The girl didn't understand his

love or infatuation

she merely was on an adventure

if ended badly, was a gain

Satan blessed or cursed him

she died in an accident

he kept cursing god.

At the funeral

he felt different

thanked god now

for making him miss her trip

He felt lucky that day

the day of the crash

the day of his flu.

At the funeral

Satan intervened

new girl entered

death of infatuation

or the beginning he wondered.

The line was again Hazy to him!!!

This song is my attempt at a pure death metal genre type song!! the underlying meaning and the non repetitive lyrics and the gross thoughts!! \m/

The Frustrated Path

"The Frustrated Path "

Life is full of mysteries and puzzles

trying to solve them landed me in

problems and difficulties unforeseen

The hastiness in overcoming these

resulted in my failure and frustration

The feeling is that there's 

something wrong in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the courage in me

The frustration is on me.

When the person at the other end

doesn't reciprocate your love

the love dies a slow natural death

leaving me with only misery and depression

The frustration in me is bottled up

and on a cue is let out on

people close to my heart

hurting them in the process.

I regret the path i've chosen

The Frustrated Path

The feeling is that there's

something wrong in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the path for me

the frustrated path is the one.

In the pursuit of that elusive happiness

I started dealing with the problems

solving them one by one made my

path to a peaceful existence too clear

In righting the wrong i've done

i took the support of my friends

trusting their advice in helping me out

and making me a better person.

The feeling is that there's

something good in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the despair in me

the frustration is outta me.

The feeling is that there's

something good in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the sadness in me

the happiness is on me ATLAST!!