Wednesday, February 17, 2010

3 PIRATES on a journey...in search of STEVEN WILSON!!


This trip is one thing i wont ever forget in my lyf....one thing that was driving me thru this was to see steven wilson enthrall me . his music inspired me a lot.
so journey was made by 3 pirates - myself, geo nd viki...
ill be telling my side of the story :
so...after the inter-iit 2009 where we lost badly , ending 5th overall, geo charted out a plan of catching a train from kanpur to bombay in general compartment coz we cudnt get regular tickets.he didnt noe tht there wasn't ne generl compartment in tht train.the journey was 6 hrs to jhansi nd we had a train booked from jhansi to bombay , the train being at 05:30 . so we reached the station by 9 pm nd the train was at 9:30...we realised then that there was no general compartment . we were stranded there as there was no option for us. bus wud take 7-8 hrs from kanpur nd there was a train at 1 am.so, geo then decided tht we wud juz get in the train nd then face wat may come in terms of fine etc.

when we boarded the train, it was awfully full. it was crowded everywhere. there were ppl like us siiting on the floor etc.i cud get an inch of space near bathroom nd got sum shitty place for my luggage, being a light traveller helped me.there was a baba beside me who kept shouting sum arbit stuff bout god etc paing me like hell.then 2 policemen caught me nd asked bout tickets, i said i dont hve ne ticket .they escorted me nd my frnds to their place in the train nd gave us sum place to sit peacefully.they took care of everything, even waking us up wen jhansi came.so we finally reached jhansi by shelling out 600 to the police men.we reached jhansi by 3:30 am .nd it was frigging cold , we cudnt go out of the station coz we didnt hve tickets, nd a sight of sum T.C guy passing us made us shiver even more. so we smoked nd drank tea to escape the cold on the platform itself ,caring a damn if we were caught by the police.finally i came up with the idea of waiting rooms in statiions, nd jhansi being a junction had gud enuf pllace for us to finally sit nd get warm. I immersed myself in a magazine nd then went out in between for a smoke.the train arrived 1 hr late adding to our misery. we boarded the train nd all three of us fell asleep being so tired.we woke up in the afti to a IIt roorkee 4th yr guy who kept us awake with sum news bout the palcement scene till we dozed of again.we had our dinner in sum shitty station, i dont even rem its name. all my fags got over in the nite ,me smoking in the train near the door. we finally reached bombay at 3 am. got out in Thane nd went to the auto expecting we'll be fleeced. thts wat happened as we shelled out 80 bucks for 100m.then we got a taxi to IIt bombay campus in powai, we finally reached manoj's hostel, hostel-9. taxi costed us 400 bucks nd the atm's inside the campus weren't working, nd manoj the fucker he is got stoned nd slept sum where.even his phone was switched off. so i nd viki went back to the main gate with the taxi guy to an atm juz outside the gat.we paid him off nd then started our walk back to the hostel after stocking up on sutts.while on our way back happily smoking, we saw a bunch of gals 4 am in the morning with low cut shirts, skirts nd all type skimpy clothes looking hot raoming around.I thut this is wat bombay is nd was happy tht tommo wud be filled with so many colours. that sight of those 6 chicks still comes up in my mind!!

we finally setttled down in manoj's room after clearing his stuff for sum place.manoj surpassed every iitian in the shittiness of his room.we watched a movie for sum tym nd then both viki nd geo dozed off.i cudnt get ne sleep so...i juz walked around in the wing to see if manoj is sum where. whom shud i find in my search but katrina nd my other frnds from IITM stoned!!....so i wait till the morning nd i went to the main gate to get sum sutts. how many i smoked ,it was countless. the sight of soo many chicks (all hot or sexy or cute) was awsum , being a part of the hormone crazred iit's this is normal!!while i was coming back i stopped at a a resto to eat sumthing, but girls there were sitting peacefully nd giving their orders to sum arbit guy standing in the already huge line by sweetly askin them.nd these jackshits took those, i was appalled by their show of desperation nd manipulativeness on the part of gals.this pissed me off, so i left to the hostel without eating.I meet manoj at last, my best buddy, the only guy who understands , i ask him for sum stuff, so tht i can smoke up nd get sum peace after wat i saw nd hve been thru. he produces a stash enuf for 20 joints. so i rolled one nd smoked up. I took a bath after that nd then went down to their canteen to eat sumthing. the food was gud, nd the company was even gud.we were tripping on ppl , me the most ,being high. the group consisted of me, manoj,geo,viki,katrina,pony,vibra.we then went to the OAT to collect our tickets nd wat greeted ujs was the soundcheck by Porcupine tree. it was the most awsum soundcheck i heard. I went to sum high land to catch sight of steven. nd behol!...its steven there playing on his guitar the song "OPEN CAR'. the people there was getting energitic by their souncheck.nd the chicks assembeled there were the best assemble i hve ever seen. so while manoj nd junta were waiting for the tickets to the concert, I and sapeksh went to main gate for sutts nd then came back to hostel to roll some joints. by the time we wr done, the queue to the concert had already started.we went there nd waited for like 1 hr to get inside the OAT. there were junta smoking everywhere inthe queue ,even the girls weren't behind,1 out of 4 gals was hving a sutta. we smoked up the joints in the line itself.the concert started with parikrama strutting their stuff very well.but i was impatient to see Porcupine tree.once they came upon, i dont remember nething, as i was lost in trance induced due to their music nd also hash i put inside the OAT. the concert ended abruptly, PT was called upon the stage again for an encore they played "TRAINS" nd "HALO" nd they bid farewell. steven promised tht they wud return to INDIA again given a chance.after the concert we went to a lounge "FUEL" nd drank booze. all the junta were soo fkingly high , we reached the hostel sumhow.then I donno how i did it but sumhow i rolled another 4 joints, which we smoked up on the terrace. evry1 was gone stoned by the time it was finished.we came down to the canteen nd had sumthing coz we didnt eat nething in the lounge nd coz our throats were fking dry due to the dope. i donno wat happened after tht coz i fell asleep there. by the time i woke up, viki nd geo had already left to catch their train. I put a joint again nd then packed my stuff nd got ready. me nd sapeksh left IIt bombay , hired an auto nd got to the pickup point , bus from bombay to hyd.

we boarded the bus , luckily we got a guy who was selling beer in the bus. we had two cans nd then fell asleep peacefully. moning came nd we reached hyd!!
THUs ends the best trip of my life!!

Monday, February 15, 2010

EP of the album "FEEL"

FEELING LOST :

I lost my heart
I lost my mind
lost my soul to you
let me get this back


I don't feel like quite myself
think i have become
another suffering of my soul
let me get this right

You ask me how i feel

looking in my eyes
hearing only what
you want to hear....!!

Stop looking at me like that
this is not what i had in my mind

I need a place to be alone
need time for myself
need a reason to be sane
let me get this straight.

I wish you knew
how i was hurt
wish you know
how you lost me
wish I wasn't so lost in real life
and you weren't there in it!!

I'm scared of getting lost

I'm scared of feeling lost
wish I wasn't even born
to feel like this..feeling lost!!
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this song is due to continuous efforts in B-slot course. :P
with the encouragement of my friends , i could get an EP (extended playlist) for this album "FEEL".

Sunday, February 14, 2010

An Encounter with my EGO!!

Ego...one word every1 either hates or believes doesn't exist for them.
i must be one exception...owing to some trips nd also sum fked up muzic aiding my brain during those trips ...i unravelled the mysteries of my ego. My conclusions are: ( these may be trippy ,so dont pain the shit outta me !..U hve been warned :P)

The Single biggest con is "I am U" . The greatest enemy who opposes ur every progressive move is ur Ego . There are no external enemies , all the perception of an enemy is a projection of the Ego as an enemy.These enemies are created so that you can blame sum1 for ur failures.Ppl dont noe tht they r imprisoned by their Ego.They lie,cheat,steal,kill nd do wat ever it takes to satisy their own Ego. ego is the worst confidence trickster we could ever figure or imagine coz u dont see it.
U start searching for ur ego to destroy it, but it hides in the last place ull ever look, within U.

Maybe this is all philosophical or utter bull shit. but this train of thought helped me enjoy all those trips!!
( for Ppl hu dont noe wat trips mean...god help u all)

Friday, February 12, 2010

Inter IIT nd MOODI...PT









ahh....
finally I saw Porcupine Tree (PT) perform live thanks to manoj (my best buddy) , vikranth nd geography .

the last december was probably the best one in my life. my two dreams came true that month. I would luv to share this journey .

So there ends the dreaded ENDSEMS of V sem , atlast ,Phew!! now everyone gears up for the tiring practice sessions ahead of INTER IIT 2009 held at IIT kanpur. My wing mates are still der after the exams as they r busy scouting for a project . I start my first practice session with some weight in my heart that my game is core to the success of the team. then comes the great food , which is served only to the sportspersons during this camp. we have only 8 days till the train journey to kanpur ,which took 2 days. those 8 days were gone in a blink, the only shit i remember is eating heartily , playing hockey while rain played spoilsport.

finally the day of departure dawns , every1 is packing stuff....im always a light traveller so.i take the bare essentials , my Ipod nd few novels. so we boarded the insti bus , which started a half hour late . we reached central some 1 hr bfore the train arrival. the teams formed their groups and were generally tripping on other teams to pass the time. myself, geo nd viki had our dinner @ Marry brown .

we board the train nd finally settle down...its already 12 in the nite so ppl around us were sleeping so we also crashed after few trips down the bogies in search of our contingent nd chicks ..of course!!the next day was gone bfore we realised...I completed two novels , Two states by chetan bhagat which is too bad nd the celestial bed by irving wallace. my team mates were passing time by playing wolf, sum arbit game i nvr understood.sumhow i convinced them to play a game of cards for a change, so we continued like that till nite nd then they resumed their lawl game of wolf again. i settled on my ipod nd dozed off. the next day two other novels were completed and there were trippy ragging sessions owing to gud number of freshies in our contingent and also sum shit heads from IIT hyd provided us sum gud entertainment. the next morning we reach kanpur. the station is shittiest one i hve ever seen. there is horse shit on the platform nd filthy like hell. outside the station, it looks as if we are in some village, the buses iit kanpur hired to transport us 10 km to their campus looked like pretty fked broken down shit. sumhow we reached the campus, which is arguably the cleanest part in the city. The grounds , gardens were awesome, well maintained than ours obviously.

we were alloted Hall-5 , the hostels were far bigger than ours . we were all waiting at the entrance of the hostel until we were alloted our rooms. there was a canteen inside a hall, we went there to eat something nd were astouded by the cheap rates. aloo paratha costed 5 bucks.we finally got our rooms albeit sum confusion with athletics team.

My oWn coMpoSiTionS..!!..the album "FEEL"!!

first song :
Feeling safe :


I feel safe that you left me
leaving me with our pain
hoping we meet in our next life.

I was neither perfect nor you are
I took you as the way you are
never complained

I have shed more tears than you have

I deserved more pity than you have
never regretted


you left me alone

without knowing how it hurts


with the self pity

eating me from the inside

I feel safe
I feel SAFE!!!


my second song:


Feeling Real :


I feel so real now
now tht i came out of my shell

I burnt my place to hide

hiding my dreams from you.

being optimistic like i never was
feeling secure like i never felt

seeing myself like i never saw

writing songs like i never did....

I feel so real!!

I can learn from the past
I can hope for the future

but I can never live without you!!!

when feeling alive doesnt matter

feeling real does..it does...it does...until you r dead!!

i feel real !! i feel real !!

third song:
Feeling High:



I feel so high by her,
cannot resist her scent ,
cannot resist her kiss.


The high that you induce in me

doesn't compare with either
man-made booze or god-made grass,
quitting both for you has been easy.


The time I spend with you
just makes me feel so alive

losing my HEAD has been easy!!


I feel so intoxicated
by your mere presence
that
this love has made me weak
and you my weakness...!!


Cannot resist your charm
,
cannot resist your lure
,
I feel stoned coz of you.



Maybe this love will end

in my self induced coma

but this moment with you

makes my head spin
as if
feeling heaven
has
become a reality...!!

being stoned of you
I just wanna live with you!!

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I dedicate these songs to a person very close to my heart and also to Kurt Cobain , my Idol.
All the metal bands i listen to and crazy novels i read influenced me to write these songs. and ofcourse me falling in love nd then realizing that i am not suited to ne relationships!! Im right now working on the tunes to these songs...hopefully by next year ill be able to perform these on my hostel nite..!! lets JAM!!!