LOST CHANGES

LOST CHANGES

Everyday you gotta decide

what is eternal in this world

the man or the moment ?

the act or the reason ?

Don't change your mind

you may regret it

don't change your heart

you may be astounded

The winds of change 

blew too hard on my back

in a bid to change thyself

I lost myself !!

changes that were lost in me

inspired the emotions of my mind

after all that has happened

I still live the moment and

I still play my acts without reason !!

I've Moved On

" I'VE MOVED ON "

Ought to forget

The day I met you

The dress I first saw you in

The small talk I had with you

Now that I've moved on.

Ought to forget

The day I liked you

The movie I first took you to

The grool time I spent with you

Now that I've moved on

Wasn't my folly

mistaking your friendship

for the feelings of love

fell for you like

so many others before have.

Ought to forget

The day I proposed to you

The way I was rejected by you

The fights I had with you

Now that I've moved on

Wrestling with myself 

realized the value of

live and let live

making me forget these

now that I've moved on.

This song is inspired from Porcupine tree's " she's moved on" . 

Dying a Virgin

"Dying A Virgin"

My first proposal , the flowers

the gifts , the bottomless thoughts

the expectations , that dreams together.

My first love , the touch

the kiss , the crazy pranks

the movies , that walks together.

She outgrew my love

a passing phase for her

moving on , found love again

got married and settles

Something in me died,

snapped and broken that day.

My first break-up , the depression

the misery , the lost energy

the confusion , that happiness lost forever.

My first job , the friends

the booze , the cool parties

the drugs , that unrealistic shit forever.

In a quest to regain

that lost part of me, spent

regretting the paths chosen

until death was upon me.

Dying a virgin , felt happy

that i at least found love , found

that inner peace this day!!

OUTSIDER!!

Outsider

Outside

on the dark side

alone

looking in

on a whim

want a home

Outsider

in my blood

in my bones

can't have

what i want

doomed to roam

all alone

on the outside

Let me in

want a friend

need a lover

Be with me

be my girl

be my soul

walk my heart 

to its death

Outsider

in my blood

in my bones

can't have

what i want

Doomed to roam

all alone

on the outside.

Another attempt at a death metal song!!

Death of Infatuation

"Death of Infatuation"

A fine, thin line between

infatuation and love

so crossed is the line,

he thought of it

The music, pornography

and the movies

the onset of puberty and

the journey through adolescence

The line became Hazy.

A girl entered,

he called it love

others called it insanity

he called it madness of love.

The girl didn't understand his

love or infatuation

she merely was on an adventure

if ended badly, was a gain

Satan blessed or cursed him

she died in an accident

he kept cursing god.

At the funeral

he felt different

thanked god now

for making him miss her trip

He felt lucky that day

the day of the crash

the day of his flu.

At the funeral

Satan intervened

new girl entered

death of infatuation

or the beginning he wondered.

The line was again Hazy to him!!!

This song is my attempt at a pure death metal genre type song!! the underlying meaning and the non repetitive lyrics and the gross thoughts!! \m/

The Frustrated Path

"The Frustrated Path "

Life is full of mysteries and puzzles

trying to solve them landed me in

problems and difficulties unforeseen

The hastiness in overcoming these

resulted in my failure and frustration

The feeling is that there's 

something wrong in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the courage in me

The frustration is on me.

When the person at the other end

doesn't reciprocate your love

the love dies a slow natural death

leaving me with only misery and depression

The frustration in me is bottled up

and on a cue is let out on

people close to my heart

hurting them in the process.

I regret the path i've chosen

The Frustrated Path

The feeling is that there's

something wrong in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the path for me

the frustrated path is the one.

In the pursuit of that elusive happiness

I started dealing with the problems

solving them one by one made my

path to a peaceful existence too clear

In righting the wrong i've done

i took the support of my friends

trusting their advice in helping me out

and making me a better person.

The feeling is that there's

something good in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the despair in me

the frustration is outta me.

The feeling is that there's

something good in myself

i can't find the words

and i can't find the sadness in me

the happiness is on me ATLAST!!

Song 1 of Youth maturitY

Immature Youth :



The day I entered College
after those days at high school
expectations of parents fulfilled
Now those mine are in front.



These expectations of mine
made others call my symptoms
Being an Immature Youth
Now i realize their words of maturity.



In search of a person who
can understand and change me
found these best friends
found this girl to love
Being an Immature Youth.



Those smoke filled days
Those Booze filled nights
and Those grass fueled trips
to fuck my body system
Being an Immature Youth



These people I love
These people I hate
and Those I respect
to satisfy my overgrown Ego
Being an Immature Youth.



The depression I felt
The misery I felt
and the realizations I felt
to understand the better me
Being an Immature Youth.




When I look back on my college life
I realize the mistakes i have made
being an immature youth.



Being an immature youth
I learnt a lot in my life
faced a Lotta hardships
to become a mature youth.



Being an immature youth
I changed a lot with the
years in the college spent
to become a mature youth.




I bid adieu to my immaturity
to welcome the maturity in me.

NarCotiC DepRessiOn !!

well, this post is how narcotics fuel depression.

The thoughts while smoking a cigarette which i think will be my last . this is what i have been thinking of all the cigarettes i smoked this week. the feeling of depression arrives due to being lonely or being jobless. 2 minutes of free time u get makes u smoke a cigarette . These narcotics give you a false sense of security shielding you against those anxiety attacks , mood swings.

I have lost all energy. I am at the bottom of the trough in my mood waves. And I never know when I'll hit the crest again. It could be tonight, it could be tomorrow, it could be next week. Although I really have noticed an improvement in myself in comparison with the me even just a year ago.

Wouldn't it be easier, I think, just to completely numb yourself? To feel nothing, to have something so strong that completely knocks me off my feet. (Weed helps , but i have made a promise not to smoke up again .) Able to function, but with none of the anxiety or fear or mood and attitude swings. It would be easier, far easier. And sometimes I am tempted. I have been tempted by many many things. I have done many many things. But I still can't make myself do this, to numb myself completely.

I still want to feel. For what is life without a little pain? Are not the good times more sweet because we know the ache of disappointment and hurt? Are not the times when I am finally stable and not manic or depressive better and more precious because I see the extremes?

I get so pensive. Things that haunt me, things I wonder about, things that I think are yet to come. I try talking about these thoughts to other people, but the words don't come to make sentences others would understand. In my head, I can mull these things. I am having trouble even wording in this post how and what I think.

I couldn't complete these post as these thoughts are so incoherent and i have been thinking in circles for a long time .Perhaps my mind needs to rest . And maybe also because the last cigarette i have is over .

This post isn't meant for anyone . It is a composition of my thoughts these past weeks. The pain i have felt and the losses i have incurred may not be understood by people.


Hope you hated this post .

Problematic L0VE~~

Excerpts from my life :


- The Girl you love doesn't love you back , instead says that she treats you like a friend.
- Your friends make fun of you , being such a dickhead .
- You degrade yourself in front of your friends.
- The sky high reputation of yours come crashing down .
- The words Shit , fuck-up , bitch become a part of your regular vocabulary.
- Life becomes a Lotta complicated , every decision you take back fires in some or the other way.
- The girl doesn't respect your simple wishes .
- You forget that there is a thing called 'EGO'.
- You write songs that contain your feelings , your love , your plight.
- You start blogging , even blog about your love .
- booze , grass becomes your daily appetite.
- Thinking in circles becomes a common habit .
- Watching love stories on any screen is an horrific experience after the break up.
- You are glued to your phone , waiting for a call or a message .
- You enjoy every moment with her .
- You don't have time for yourself , to introspect about your life .
- And when you do , you see a big void .
- You sacrifice everything for the girl , you care more about her than yourself only to understand in the end that everything was in vain.
- Tripping on you becomes a favourite past time for your friends.
- Your best friend also falls for your girl , in an intoxicated state says I'm the only obstacle for his love.
-  You become an insomniac .
- You think so much about her even though she says she doubts whether you are really in love.
- You will start hating yourself for being so irresponsible and careless in your life.Coz no girl would want such a guy.
- Circumstances force you to change many things about you and also wish she was a little different .
- Introspecting yourself , you feel enough damage has been done . nobody needs to change , me never . Life is all about being yourself .
- You start thinking that life should be lived your way .
- You now understand the quote " LOVE IS SLOW POISON " .
- Finally You realize that 'You Are Alone '.
- And also that the time when you were single was the best part in your life .

Thank you guys for reading my rantings about my pathetic life . Guys like me are not suited to either LOVE or Relationships . We should remain single . Comments are welcome. 

heAdbaNger fOr lYf \m/...

I nvr thought music could become such an integral part of my life.I Dont remember how i got introduced to rock music , but my first love was Linkin Park ( as it is with all beginners ) . Then it was Backstreet boys with their slow nd rhythmic music . that was the time when i used to listen to every arbit english song played on T.V . I realised then that rock music is the baap of all music until i became a complete metal freak.
my Headbanging journey is as follows :

Red Hot Chilli Peppers : Californication still touches me somewhere with its music . anthony nd flea \m/. best song : Californication

Guns 'N' Roses : Slash...one guy who carried the band...Axl rose , the motherfking bastard. hope slash still creates his magic with Velvet Revolver.Best song : November rain

Pink Floyd : The masters. The pioneers . My all-time favourite band to listen when you are on a trip.Best song : Another brick in the wall

Rammstein : WTF?! was my first reaction . they rape the shit outta u with their music. vocals r the highlight. MOFUs man!! U nvr for a moment think that they sing in german. best song : Engel or Du Hast.

Dream Theater : truly technical , nd lotta variety . portnoy is the best drummer ,in my view . Best song : Change of seasons.

Judas 'Fking' Priest : The name says it all . fking good music nd their live shows kick sum heavy ass during those dayz . Best song : Breaking the law.

Iron Maiden : The Baap of Metal music , though sum may argue in the favour of black sabbath . but fk u all , Iron Maiden is THE BAAP. Best song : Fear of the Dark.

Black Sabbath : The first song i heard of them was Iron Man . temme one mortal's name who wudnt get hooked to sabbath after tht song. The greatest metal song ever . Best song : shud i mention .

Metallica : The Best band ever to hve graced the scene . I bow to Thy Masters. Best song : Master of Puppets.

Megadeth : Dave Dave Dave !! Dave Mustaine is god.One of the Original Thrash metal bands and a very influential group. Thnx for gracing Bangalore with ur presence .Best Song : Peace sells ... but who's buying it?

Opeth : It was my first rock concert nd i was lost in the web of their music. My first of everything that day . OPETH \m/ . Mikael is best fking vocalist according to me . the autographs , the pics , the conversations ..will be there with me for the rest of my life . ardently waiting for your next album . Fk NOKIA and Live a SAARANG!! Best song : Black Rose Immortal.


System of a Down : The vocals are inspiring and in your ace thanks to serj Tankian. everything about the band is different from other bands. are on a indefinite hiatus.:( best song: Toxicity.

Marilyn Manson : wat a fucked up artist , but a great one. His musical influence is too good.his videos are a treat to watch. Best song : Beautiful people.

Slayer : One of the "BIG FOUR" of Thrash metal music . Crazy riffs , fast tremolo pickings are their trademark . Satanistic Lyrical bastards. Best song : Raining blood .

KORN : I'm a dedicated fan of this heavy metal band with grunge like music . the music is far different and the vocals are also good . Best song : Freak on a leash .

Rage Against The Machine : One of the most popular and influential POLITICAL band. their live shows are kick ass . the vocals are like Rap coz de la rocha was a rapper before this band . Best song : Bulls on Parade .

Bullet For My Valentine : The riffs , the vocals , the musical style all make BFMV a great band . their music is meant for the generation X . Best song : Tears Dont Fall .

Porcupine Tree : The band which comprises of Steven is ought to be great . the man who introduced Opeth . PT's music inspires me a lot . even attended their Live concert at Moodi , IIT bombay . The show was Awesome nd trains was part of their encore . Shtud performance . Best song : Trains/ Even less .

Hammerfall : I started listening to this band just before they got confirmed for a live concert in my college . I am really thankful for being here in IITM coz it was the place for two fking live concerts of OPETH nd HAMMERFALL . the band is really great nd oscar has the best guitar i hve seen ,which has an LCD display quoting " no job is better than blow job " \m/ . Best song : Templars of Steel.

Radiohead : The band one shud listen while on a trip . the best music to be heard wen u r high . The vocals by thom burke are a highlight . Best song : Paranoid Android .

Riverside : The band I'm currently listening to . it has the same sound as PT nd TOOL . progressive metal is too good . Best song : Egoist Hedonist .


These are the bands worth mentioning in my journey nd their influence was great in my life . I couldn't mention some other bands because they were not so part of me. I'll keep updating it .
cya rock folks . \m/.

3 PIRATES on a journey...in search of STEVEN WILSON!!

This trip is one thing i wont ever forget in my lyf....one thing that was driving me thru this was to see steven wilson enthrall me . his music inspired me a lot.
so journey was made by 3 pirates - myself, geo nd viki...
ill be telling my side of the story :
so...after the inter-iit 2009 where we lost badly , ending 5th overall, geo charted out a plan of catching a train from kanpur to bombay in general compartment coz we cudnt get regular tickets.he didnt noe tht there wasn't ne generl compartment in tht train.the journey was 6 hrs to jhansi nd we had a train booked from jhansi to bombay , the train being at 05:30 . so we reached the station by 9 pm nd the train was at 9:30...we realised then that there was no general compartment . we were stranded there as there was no option for us. bus wud take 7-8 hrs from kanpur nd there was a train at 1 am.so, geo then decided tht we wud juz get in the train nd then face wat may come in terms of fine etc.

when we boarded the train, it was awfully full. it was crowded everywhere. there were ppl like us siiting on the floor etc.i cud get an inch of space near bathroom nd got sum shitty place for my luggage, being a light traveller helped me.there was a baba beside me who kept shouting sum arbit stuff bout god etc paing me like hell.then 2 policemen caught me nd asked bout tickets, i said i dont hve ne ticket .they escorted me nd my frnds to their place in the train nd gave us sum place to sit peacefully.they took care of everything, even waking us up wen jhansi came.so we finally reached jhansi by shelling out 600 to the police men.we reached jhansi by 3:30 am .nd it was frigging cold , we cudnt go out of the station coz we didnt hve tickets, nd a sight of sum T.C guy passing us made us shiver even more. so we smoked nd drank tea to escape the cold on the platform itself ,caring a damn if we were caught by the police.finally i came up with the idea of waiting rooms in statiions, nd jhansi being a junction had gud enuf pllace for us to finally sit nd get warm. I immersed myself in a magazine nd then went out in between for a smoke.the train arrived 1 hr late adding to our misery. we boarded the train nd all three of us fell asleep being so tired.we woke up in the afti to a IIt roorkee 4th yr guy who kept us awake with sum news bout the palcement scene till we dozed of again.we had our dinner in sum shitty station, i dont even rem its name. all my fags got over in the nite ,me smoking in the train near the door. we finally reached bombay at 3 am. got out in Thane nd went to the auto expecting we'll be fleeced. thts wat happened as we shelled out 80 bucks for 100m.then we got a taxi to IIt bombay campus in powai, we finally reached manoj's hostel, hostel-9. taxi costed us 400 bucks nd the atm's inside the campus weren't working, nd manoj the fucker he is got stoned nd slept sum where.even his phone was switched off. so i nd viki went back to the main gate with the taxi guy to an atm juz outside the gat.we paid him off nd then started our walk back to the hostel after stocking up on sutts.while on our way back happily smoking, we saw a bunch of gals 4 am in the morning with low cut shirts, skirts nd all type skimpy clothes looking hot raoming around.I thut this is wat bombay is nd was happy tht tommo wud be filled with so many colours. that sight of those 6 chicks still comes up in my mind!!

we finally setttled down in manoj's room after clearing his stuff for sum place.manoj surpassed every iitian in the shittiness of his room.we watched a movie for sum tym nd then both viki nd geo dozed off.i cudnt get ne sleep so...i juz walked around in the wing to see if manoj is sum where. whom shud i find in my search but katrina nd my other frnds from IITM stoned!!....so i wait till the morning nd i went to the main gate to get sum sutts. how many i smoked ,it was countless. the sight of soo many chicks (all hot or sexy or cute) was awsum , being a part of the hormone crazred iit's this is normal!!while i was coming back i stopped at a a resto to eat sumthing, but girls there were sitting peacefully nd giving their orders to sum arbit guy standing in the already huge line by sweetly askin them.nd these jackshits took those, i was appalled by their show of desperation nd manipulativeness on the part of gals.this pissed me off, so i left to the hostel without eating.I meet manoj at last, my best buddy, the only guy who understands , i ask him for sum stuff, so tht i can smoke up nd get sum peace after wat i saw nd hve been thru. he produces a stash enuf for 20 joints. so i rolled one nd smoked up. I took a bath after that nd then went down to their canteen to eat sumthing. the food was gud, nd the company was even gud.we were tripping on ppl , me the most ,being high. the group consisted of me, manoj,geo,viki,katrina,pony,vibra.we then went to the OAT to collect our tickets nd wat greeted ujs was the soundcheck by Porcupine tree. it was the most awsum soundcheck i heard. I went to sum high land to catch sight of steven. nd behol!...its steven there playing on his guitar the song "OPEN CAR'. the people there was getting energitic by their souncheck.nd the chicks assembeled there were the best assemble i hve ever seen. so while manoj nd junta were waiting for the tickets to the concert, I and sapeksh went to main gate for sutts nd then came back to hostel to roll some joints. by the time we wr done, the queue to the concert had already started.we went there nd waited for like 1 hr to get inside the OAT. there were junta smoking everywhere inthe queue ,even the girls weren't behind,1 out of 4 gals was hving a sutta. we smoked up the joints in the line itself.the concert started with parikrama strutting their stuff very well.but i was impatient to see Porcupine tree.once they came upon, i dont remember nething, as i was lost in trance induced due to their music nd also hash i put inside the OAT. the concert ended abruptly, PT was called upon the stage again for an encore they played "TRAINS" nd "HALO" nd they bid farewell. steven promised tht they wud return to INDIA again given a chance.after the concert we went to a lounge "FUEL" nd drank booze. all the junta were soo fkingly high , we reached the hostel sumhow.then I donno how i did it but sumhow i rolled another 4 joints, which we smoked up on the terrace. evry1 was gone stoned by the time it was finished.we came down to the canteen nd had sumthing coz we didnt eat nething in the lounge nd coz our throats were fking dry due to the dope. i donno wat happened after tht coz i fell asleep there. by the time i woke up, viki nd geo had already left to catch their train. I put a joint again nd then packed my stuff nd got ready. me nd sapeksh left IIt bombay , hired an auto nd got to the pickup point , bus from bombay to hyd.

we boarded the bus , luckily we got a guy who was selling beer in the bus. we had two cans nd then fell asleep peacefully. moning came nd we reached hyd!!
THUs ends the best trip of my life!!

EP of the album "FEEL"

FEELING LOST :

I lost my heart
I lost my mind
lost my soul to you
let me get this back


I don't feel like quite myself
think i have become
another suffering of my soul
let me get this right

You ask me how i feel
looking in my eyes
hearing only what
you want to hear....!!

Stop looking at me like that
this is not what i had in my mind

I need a place to be alone
need time for myself
need a reason to be sane
let me get this straight.

I wish you knew
how i was hurt
wish you know
how you lost me
wish I wasn't so lost in real life
and you weren't there in it!!

I'm scared of getting lost
I'm scared of feeling lost
wish I wasn't even born
to feel like this..feeling lost!!
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this song is due to continuous efforts in B-slot course. :P
with the encouragement of my friends , i could get an EP (extended playlist) for this album "FEEL".

An Encounter with my EGO!!

Ego...one word every1 either hates or believes doesn't exist for them.
i must be one exception...owing to some trips nd also sum fked up muzic aiding my brain during those trips ...i unravelled the mysteries of my ego. My conclusions are: ( these may be trippy ,so dont pain the shit outta me !..U hve been warned :P)

The Single biggest con is "I am U" . The greatest enemy who opposes ur every progressive move is ur Ego . There are no external enemies , all the perception of an enemy is a projection of the Ego as an enemy.These enemies are created so that you can blame sum1 for ur failures.Ppl dont noe tht they r imprisoned by their Ego.They lie,cheat,steal,kill nd do wat ever it takes to satisy their own Ego. ego is the worst confidence trickster we could ever figure or imagine coz u dont see it.U start searching for ur ego to destroy it, but it hides in the last place ull ever look, within U.

Maybe this is all philosophical or utter bull shit. but this train of thought helped me enjoy all those trips!!
( for Ppl hu dont noe wat trips mean...god help u all)

Inter IIT nd MOODI...PT

ahh....finally I saw Porcupine Tree (PT) perform live thanks to manoj (my best buddy) , vikranth nd geography .

the last december was probably the best one in my life. my two dreams came true that month. I would luv to share this journey .

So there ends the dreaded ENDSEMS of V sem , atlast ,Phew!! now everyone gears up for the tiring practice sessions ahead of INTER IIT 2009 held at IIT kanpur. My wing mates are still der after the exams as they r busy scouting for a project . I start my first practice session with some weight in my heart that my game is core to the success of the team. then comes the great food , which is served only to the sportspersons during this camp. we have only 8 days till the train journey to kanpur ,which took 2 days. those 8 days were gone in a blink, the only shit i remember is eating heartily , playing hockey while rain played spoilsport.

finally the day of departure dawns , every1 is packing stuff....im always a light traveller so.i take the bare essentials , my Ipod nd few novels. so we boarded the insti bus , which started a half hour late . we reached central some 1 hr bfore the train arrival. the teams formed their groups and were generally tripping on other teams to pass the time. myself, geo nd viki had our dinner @ Marry brown .

we board the train nd finally settle down...its already 12 in the nite so ppl around us were sleeping so we also crashed after few trips down the bogies in search of our contingent nd chicks ..of course!!the next day was gone bfore we realised...I completed two novels , Two states by chetan bhagat which is too bad nd the celestial bed by irving wallace. my team mates were passing time by playing wolf, sum arbit game i nvr understood.sumhow i convinced them to play a game of cards for a change, so we continued like that till nite nd then they resumed their lawl game of wolf again. i settled on my ipod nd dozed off. the next day two other novels were completed and there were trippy ragging sessions owing to gud number of freshies in our contingent and also sum shit heads from IIT hyd provided us sum gud entertainment. the next morning we reach kanpur. the station is shittiest one i hve ever seen. there is horse shit on the platform nd filthy like hell. outside the station, it looks as if we are in some village, the buses iit kanpur hired to transport us 10 km to their campus looked like pretty fked broken down shit. sumhow we reached the campus, which is arguably the cleanest part in the city. The grounds , gardens were awesome, well maintained than ours obviously.

we were alloted Hall-5 , the hostels were far bigger than ours . we were all waiting at the entrance of the hostel until we were alloted our rooms. there was a canteen inside a hall, we went there to eat something nd were astouded by the cheap rates. aloo paratha costed 5 bucks.we finally got our rooms albeit sum confusion with athletics team.

My oWn coMpoSiTionS..!!..the album "FEEL"!!

first song :
Feeling safe :

I feel safe that you left me
leaving me with our pain
hoping we meet in our next life.

I was neither perfect nor you are
I took you as the way you are
never complained

I have shed more tears than you have
I deserved more pity than you have
never regretted

you left me alone
without knowing how it hurts

with the self pity
eating me from the inside
I feel safe I feel SAFE!!!


my second song:

Feeling Real :

I feel so real now

now tht i came out of my shell

I burnt my place to hide
hiding my dreams from you.

being optimistic like i never was
feeling secure like i never felt
seeing myself like i never saw
writing songs like i never did....
I feel so real!!

I can learn from the past
I can hope for the future
but I can never live without you!!!

when feeling alive doesnt matter
feeling real does..it does...it does...until you r dead!!
i feel real !! i feel real !!

third song:
Feeling High:

I feel so high by her,

cannot resist her scent ,
cannot resist her kiss.

The high that you induce in me
doesn't compare with either
man-made booze or god-made grass,
quitting both for you has been easy.

The time I spend with you
just makes me feel so alive
losing my HEAD has been easy!!

I feel so intoxicated
by your mere presence
that this love has made me weak
and you my weakness...!!

Cannot resist your charm ,
cannot resist your lure ,
I feel stoned coz of you.


Maybe this love will end
in my self induced coma
but this moment with you
makes my head spin
as if feeling heaven
has become a reality...!!

being stoned of you
I just wanna live with you!!

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I dedicate these songs to a person very close to my heart and also to Kurt Cobain , my Idol. All the metal bands i listen to and crazy novels i read influenced me to write these songs. and ofcourse me falling in love nd then realizing that i am not suited to ne relationships!! Im right now working on the tunes to these songs...hopefully by next year ill be able to perform these on my hostel nite..!! lets JAM!!!